Why

Circling and circling and circling.

Every single time,
while I'm trying to find a way to forget,
to get rid of,
to run away;

You, at the same time,
have found a way to remind me,
to reinforce my memory,
to hold me.

You never did it on purpose, I know.
But I want to let it go, after all, it's three years ago,
I can't let the guiltiness swallow me.

Hurting,
Pushing,
Regretting,
Punishing.
That's all I have done,
and all I have got.

Never forget, never forgive.

Why?
Is that because you can't forgive me,
so you can't bear me to forget?